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I have been frusterated with the things going on and no one to turn to...
First of all, I am the worlds worst speller, sorry, thats just how it is...
There are a lot of things that happen to me and some to 2 of my children. When ever I try to seek help in knowing what is going on I mostly find people that are all about magic and spells and sparkles and glimmer and anything that looks really scary that make people go 'Oooooooo.'
I just need to talk to a group that is realistic and deals with real life and real life problems who work hard and know that this world isnt allways easy. Just real people.
Please dont put me off at all, I dont mean to offend anyone and Im not trying to be rude.. Its just, I dont know whats wrong with me and I need real people to talk to that isnt gonna call me crazy or talk about magic.
When things can be hard, I tend to sleep hard but yet I dont really sleep. I sit up (not my body, just me) and seem to keep an eye on my room. I see everything as it really is. I also see other things that no one else can see but I know its there. When I worked nights at a motel while pregnant with my 3rd child I would fall assleep. But aas long as it was infront of the window I could sleep while "I" watch out the window to see if anyone was comming. In dream like state I can see a car come and park and I would try to wake myself up. When I woke that car would be right at where it should be and someone starting to walk in. This isnt all the time. It just seems to be when I need it.
There is a thing that chokes me sometimes while I sleep and it takes a little too get it to stop. Now I have seen differant levels of ghost if you will, I hate to call them that. Ive seen my uncle John stretched out on a couch once smileing at me as I snuck back in the house when I was a teen. When I was younger, about 4 or so, there was a little boy and girl that would play with me in my sand box a lot. They said they lived next door but that lady had a couple of teens and that was all and couldnt understand when I wanted to play with the little kids that lived there. As a teen in Washington State is the first time I saw a 'shadow person' I hate calling them that too. Ive seen plenty since then. When I had my first place I was reading, flowers in the atic, and fell asleep while reading one night and when I woke there was a face right in mine in the form of what I imagined the grandfather to look like. They have made countless noises around me, crashing, stomping, throwing pans, knocking on doors, and the list goes on. Iv had problems with them screaming in my ear or even just talking to me and telling me a few times what would happen in the feuture and I tell them they are wrong just to have it happen anyway. They sometimes make it in my dreams and wont leave me alone. Iv had them 'tie me down' so to speak, I couldnt move and they would get in my ear and say things. One had such a hiddyous voise that no movie could ever mimick it. I hate them touching me, I have my space, my bubble and I dont want them in it. This bareley even touches the stuff Iv been through with these things and I have tryed to close the door but I just cant seem to do it all the way. So I guess learn to controle this is the next step??
I dont know what to do. Im not strong in this to make it useful to help people and if I cant use it then it becomes annoying. 2 of my children have been botherd by this as well so now I need to figure out what to do so that I can help them too..
If someone can help, please do...
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Permalink Reply by DeborahAnna on -
Sounds like you and your children are sensitive to spirits .Whether you choose to develop the ability or not is up to you.Most people do find that unless they choose to develop it that so that that it can be applied that it is pretty abstract and rather useless .
I can not speak for ever one that has this ability but of myself and those I know that do we have pretty much found out it is kind of hard to ignore so most just decide to develop it so that it will be
useful .It does have that ability of scaring you or even causing you to question your sanity at it's worse .
You said you didn't want any fluff or magic .So that is about as real as it gets .
It is not going to go away so either you can develop it into sometime usable or find new ways to ignore it . I doubt you have had much success at ignoring it ....so the obvious answer is find out as much as you can about it so that it is something more manageable and so you can find ways to make it less scary for the kids until they are old enough to understand better .
My kids are sensitive to spirits too but they are not scared of them .Why ? Because I educated myself about them (spirits) and learned how things worked and because I seem to be comfortable and even interact with the spirits my children do not see them as a threat .How something is perceived has a lot to do with how much fear or faith you will have .Knowledge is your friend we only fear what we do not understand. I suggest you find some good books on mediumship and read about experiences other mediums have had and what works for them.Likely you will find you are very much like them . You are at the beginning of learning what this is all about so some things will seem a bit to far out there for you .Don't worry ANYTHING YOU ARE NOT READY FOR CAN BE PUT ASIDE FOR LATER WHEN YOU ARE . Go at your own pace and remember this is your personal journey .There are people that can help you along the way but they can only do so much the rest is up to you .
And when you would sit up and watch everything but your body would still be laying ...that was your astral body or your spirit form ...it also has the ability to leave your body completely as well .You spirit body would raise out and look out the window while your physical body would get the sleep it needed . Well I hope this helps !
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Permalink Reply by Stef on -
Yes, it does help, thankyou for replying to me. I have decided to develope it. But like I said, I just dont do the the magic thing. That stays in walt disney. But I would like to grow and learn how to controle this so that it isnt something I allways am trying to gaurd myself from. Allthough there are some things that are not good. Thats how it is as I see it. Nothing is all good nor all bad. For the most part anyway. Interestingly enouph, IO decided to start recording all the times that I am contacted from them. As usually it is in a negative way. But I burned lots of sage lately, as work has had me very upset lately and sage has a natural anti depresser in it, I also know that it in fact makes the area nuteral. I had a contact from a little girl in a white nightgown that was frusterated over something on a paper. I couldnt figure it out as I could see her mouth going but there was no sound. My daughter came into the room and that scared the little girl and she ran off. I dont know if my daughter saw her or not as she is 5 and this sort of stuff hasnt sat well with her and I dont want to scare her more. Also I want to hear things that is true from her and not something that could have been suggested to say, you know what I mean? The next night there was a voice close to my ear that simply said that someone, cant think of the name right now and dont want to wake my husband up going in to get it, had past away a long time ago. I didnt know this name at all. But thats what was said. I am surprised at this as this usually are negative things that happen to me but this time, 2 nights in a row, it hasnt been negative at all. I havent had anything happen since but sometimes that happens when things just seem to stop for a while and then out of no where its going again. I would like to understand it and work on it cause I dont know what else to do anymore. Sometimes we are even scared to move beause some houses have been so hard to live in that bad things allways happen there and I am tired of allways being scared and seeing my kids be scared too. So, yes, Iwant to develope this. Thank you for your help, Stef
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